I still don't know how does this shitty life works, when you're supposed to get the "sweet tastes" it gets bitter, and when it gets bitter, it reaches the most sour taste you could imagine...it's a metaphor if you haven't noticed.
Anyways, when will get my chance at making it big? People i know have hopes on me, and i hope too, but the chances are the worst, i already tried pursuing them, even thought they're just as useless as the others, and i still think God is an evil guy who finds it fun to put me on the spotlight and shake me from side to side, just to laugh at my face.
People simply can't comprehend that i am lazy, that i am demotivated, that i am depressed, and that this way, i won't have strenght to keep going, and it's not even like i'm not trying, the last experiences made made me very pessimist person, and there's nothing i can do about it, so here's a message for those trying to change me:
- Thanks for the support, and effort, BUT I DON'T FUCKING WANT TO CHANGE!
...'cause sometimes you just need to be that obvious.
And so, another week starts, and it's not starting to well, so i suppose by my knowledge, that if it's starting this way, it might probably just get absurdly ironic and unfortunate.
So i leave a poem, for people who just happen to be on to the same situation as me:
The Boat to Eternity.
I've watched the trees growing,
and the farmers with high hopes,
for richer times to come.
The mothers carrying their childs,
anxiously, for about nine months,
inside their wombs.
Both grow, with high expectations,
and life itself offers no chance of prospection.
Like every living being, they're destined to die,
it's a fact that haunts each and every meaning of life.
I've seen the last autumn leaf fall from the old tree,
nobody pays attention, but the leaves falling mean so much more to me.
Falling leaves are meant to show humankind,
that nothing more than a certain end awaits it,
so don't mind it.
As the natural course of things is bound to change,
the old will depart, and the young will remain,
following their fathers steps,
while their sons follow them again.
They've seen the skies change,
i have seen the time fly.
They've been to places all around,
and i have always watched them from affar.
Death is this arduous journey,
long, and filled with many memories.
Death is always going to be a nostalgic journey.
Let's just hope my week doesn't get too bad to tolerate without losing a nerve.